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Are there any questions??
The gesture is supposed to indicate openness
on the part of the speaker, I suppose, but if in fact you do ask a question,
both the speaker and audience will give you drop-dead looks. And some fool
-- some earnest idiot -- always asks. And the speaker always answers. By
repeating most of what he has already said.
But if there is a little time left and there
is a little silence in response to the invitation, I usually ask the most
important question of all: "What is the meaning of life?"
You never know, somebody may have the answer,
and I'd really hate to miss it because I was too socially inhibited to ask.
But when I ask, it's usually taken as a kind of absurdist move -- people
laugh and nod and gather up their stuff and the meeting is dismissed on that
ridiculous note.
Once, and only once, I asked that question
and got a serious answer. One that is with me still.
First, I must tell you where this happened,
because the place has a power of its own. In Greece again.
Near the village of Gonia on a rocky bay of
the island of Crete, sits a Greek Orthodox monastery. Alongside it, on land
donated by the monastery, is an institute dedicated to human understanding
and peace, and especially to rapprochement between Germans and Cretans. An
improbable task, given the bitter residue of wartime.
This site is important, because it overlooks
the small airstrip at Maleme where Nazi paratroopers invaded Crete and were
attacked by peasants wielding kitchen knives and hay scythes. The
retribution was terrible. The populations of whole villages were lined up
and shot for assaulting Hitler's finest troops. High above the institute is
a cemetery with a single cross marking the mass grave of Cretan partisans.
And across the bay on yet another hill is the regimented burial ground of
the Nazi paratroopers. The memorials are so placed that all might see and
never forget. Hate was the only weapon the Cretans had at the end, and it
was a weapon many vowed never to give up. Never ever.
Against this heavy curtain of history, in
this place where the stone of hatred is hard and thick, the existence of an
institute devoted to healing the wounds of war is a fragile paradox. How has
it come to be here? The answer is a man. Alexander Papaderos.
A doctor of philosophy, teacher, politician,
resident of Athens but a son of this soil. At war's end he came to believe
that the Germans and the Cretans had much to give one another -- much to
learn from one another. That they had an example to set. For if they could
forgive each other and construct a creative relationship, then any people
could.
To make a lovely story short, Papaderos
succeeded. The institute became a reality -- a conference ground on the site
of horror -- and it was in fact a source of productive interaction between
the two countries. Books have been written on the dreams that were realized
by what people gave to people in this place.
By the time I came to the institute for a
summer session, Alexander Papaderos had become a living legend. One look at
him and you saw his strength and intensity -- energy, physical power,
courage, intelligence, passion, and vivacity radiated from this person. And
to speak to him, to shake his hand, to be in a room with him when he spoke,
was to experience his extraordinary electric humanity. Few men live up to
their reputations when you get close. Alexander Papaderos was an exception.
At the last session on the last morning of a
two-week seminar on Greek culture, led by intellectuals and experts in their
fields who were recruited by Papaderos from across Greece, Papaderos rose
from his chair at the back of the room and walked to the front, where he
stood in the bright Greek sunlight of an open window and looked out. We
followed his gaze across the bay to the iron cross marking the German
cemetery.
He turned. And made the ritual gesture: "Are
there any questions?"
Quiet quilted the room. These two weeks had
generated enough questions for a lifetime, but for now there was only
silence.
"No questions?" Papaderos swept the room with
his eyes.
So. I asked.
"Dr. Papaderos, what is the meaning of life?"
The usual laughter followed, and people
stirred to go.
Papaderos held up his hand and stilled the
room and looked at me for a long time, asking with his eyes if I was serious
and seeing from my eyes that I was.
"I will answer your question."
Taking his wallet out of his hip pocket, he
fished into a leather billfold and brought out a very small round mirror,
about the size of a quarter.
And what he said went like this:
"When I was a small child, during the war, we
were very poor and we lived in a remote village. One day, on the road,
I found the broken pieces of a mirror. A German motorcycle had been wrecked
in that place.
"I tried to find all the pieces and put them
together, but it was not possible, so I kept only the largest piece. This
one. And by scratching it on a stone I made it round. I began to play with
it as a toy and became fascinated by the fact that I could reflect light
into dark places where the sun would never shine -- in deep holes and
crevices and dark closets. It became a game for me to get light into the
most inaccessible places I could find.
"I kept the little mirror, and as I went
about my growing up, I would take it out in idle moments and continue the
challenge of the game. As I became a man, I grew to understand that this was
not just a child's game but a metaphor for what I might do with my life. I
came to understand that I am not the light or the source of light. But light
-- truth, understanding, knowledge -- is there, and it will only shine in
many dark places if I reflect it.
"I am a fragment of a mirror whose whole
design and shape I do not know. Nevertheless, with what I have I can reflect
light into the dark places of this world -- into the black places in the
hearts of men -- and change some things in some people. Perhaps others may
see and do likewise. This is what I am about. This is the meaning of my
life."
And then he took his small mirror and,
holding it carefully, caught the bright rays of daylight streaming through
the window and reflected them onto my face and onto my hands folded on the
desk.
Much of what I experienced in the way of
information about Greek culture and history that summer is gone from memory.
But in the wallet of my mind I carry a small round mirror still. Are there any questions?
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